I would love the man...

who would be loyal

who would hold my hand tight, tighter when I hold his.

who would stare at me, every chance he gets.

who would whisper in my ears how much he loves me, and yell it if I gave him a doubtful face.

who would tell his friends how amazing I am, not in bed, but in his life when I came in.

who would never get failed to remind me, how important I am, not just for him, but as a person.

who would text me every morning just before I wake up. 

who would start my day happy.

who would send me goodnight kiss before I'm going to sleep.

who would kiss me when I get pissed off.

who would kiss me on the forehead just to remind I deserve a respect

who would sing my favorite song even if he can't carry a tune

who would sleep on my lap and feels comfortable with me

who would laugh on my corny jokes

who would willing to learn how to cook my favorite food just to make me feel he's caring

who would never left me on my darkest hours

who would hug me when I'm in the middle of my sad stories.

who would tell me his darkest secret.

who would tell me randomly what happened to him the whole day, at the end of the day

who would never get tired to understand when my bad attitudes attacks.

who would get angry, pissed off, mad, but nothing he can do is just hug me, and cry. and let me realize my own fault.

who would call me, just to let me know he missed me, even if, we were just an hour ago ended a call.

who would give me everything. . .

who would ready to sacrifice everything for me.

who would put me first on his priorities.

who would plan the rest of his life with me.

who would loved to have children with me.

who would make me feel special.

who would turn my world up side down.

who would not stop dreaming of me.

who would kill if someones going to hurt me, yet, would stop himself because he knows I wouldn't be happy if he does.

who would be pathetic but open up with me and listen to make it clear.

who would ask me to marry him, and love doesn't end there, yet love me more than he loved me when we're not getting married.

who would have time to listen on my boring stories.

who would encourage me to pursue my dreams.

who would involve himself to my life.

who would bring me with his family.

who would never change.

who would never get his past back.

who would repeat all what I have said from the start, even if we were both on senior age.

who would ready to die if I died.

who would love me eternally.

My Bucket List

10 years from now. I wanna grant this list at least 50 % of it.

• brand new cellphone
• brand new ipod touch
• brand new laptop
• brand new ipad/tab
• brand new camera SLR
• pair of shoes
• pair of slippers
• new blouse
• new shorts
• new jeans
• accessories
• watch
• shades
• complete make up kit
• travel the country.

-Bora

-Palawan

-Cam sur

-Ilocos

-Baguio

-etc. (discover more)

• travel the World

-Paris

-Rome Italy

-Milan

-Dubai

-Singapore

-Malaysia

-Thailand

-Hongkong

-etc. (discover more)

• car
• own a condominium unit
• have business (restaurant)
• marry
• have kids at least two.
• give mom perfect life.

someday it gonna make sense ★

I do believe in "Everything happened for a reason" di ko lam kung pampalubag loob lang at pagtakas o talagang naniniwala nga ako.


lagi kong iniisip na sana may mas magandang dahilan kung bakit nangyayari ang mga bagay bagay sa buhay ko, malalim pero, totoo.


siguro kaya ako nasaktan noon, para tumibay at lumakas ang loob. siguro kaya may mga taong nawawala para matuto tayong tumayo sa mga bagay na akala nating di natin magagawa ng wala sila. siguro paraan lang yun ng pagpaparealize satin na kaya natin, dahil minsan na nating inisip na hindi natin kaya.


siguro kaya may nakikilala tayong mga bagong tao, sila yung magpapakilala kung sino talaga tayo. pwede silang maging kaaway o kaibigan. siguro kaya dumadating sila para ipakita sa atin kung ano pa ba ang mga bagay na di pa natin alam. pwedeng ituro nila, o pwede ding tayo ang makatuklas ng dahil sa kanila.

ang mga nakakaaway natin, di natin alam mahalaga pala ang mga nagawa nila sa buhay natin, di lang natin napapansin pero, sila ang nagsisilbing pampatibay ng katauhan natin. ng dahil sa kanila natuto tayong magisip ng paraan kung paano lumaban, kung ano pa ba ang dapat at di dapat gawin. sila ang humuhubog sa mura nating isipan kung ano ang mga totoo sa atin. di man natin matanggap, pero sila ang nagpapaalala sa atin ng mga bagay na buong buhay natin di natin matanggap sa mga sarili natin. sila ang nagpapaalala ng mga bagay na gusto na nating kalimutan. mga bagay na ikaw sa sarili mo, di mo matanggap tanggap. pero ng dahil sa kanila, makikita mo ang kagandahan ng mga lumipas. kagandahan na maari pa lang maging sandata mo pag dating ng araw. di mo maiisip na dun ka na pala humuhugot ng lakas. ganyan sila, ganyan ang mga kaaway. ginagalit ka nila, sinasaktan. pero isipin mong mabuti, karamihan sa sinasabi nila ay totoo, ngunit hindi tanggapin ng pagkatao mo. bat di mo subukang balikan ang mga sinasabi nila? itama mo? saka ka magpasalamat sa kanila. dahil sa kanila, lumuwag na ang sikip sa puso mo.


ang mga kaibigan natin, sila yung nagbibigay ng saya, sa bawat panahon na lumipas, iba't ibang kaibigan ang ating makakaharap,.. lahat sila may dalang purpose sa buhay mo, lahat sila may naiambag sa pagkatao mo, akala mo puro saya lang? akala mo puro katotohanan? maaring kwento ng buhay nila ang magturo satin ng mga bagay bagay na dapat nating malaman, na sa palagay mo ay hindi mo pa nararanasan. pwede nating paghandaan kung sa atin man maganap. minsan ang kaibigan, sila nga ang nakakasama mo, pero hindi pa pala nila kilala ang totoo mong pagkatao,. natatakot ka na baka pag nalaman nila, mawala sila sayo? hindi yon ang tunay na kaibigan,. ang kaibigan ay yung maiintdihan ka sa lahat ng bagay,.
maingay ka man, tahimik, maarte, simple, matapang, duwag, anu man ang pagkatao mo, tanggap ka nila. hindi mo dapat tinatago kung sino ka talaga, lalo na kung sa mga walang kwentang tao. masarap mabuhay ng ginagawa mo ang gusto mo, sinosoportahan ka ng mga taong nasa paligid mo,.. panget man o maganda,. tatanggapin nila dahil dun ka masaya. may mga nasasabi din sila na maaring tumatak sa isipan natin. na maaring bumago sa buong pagkatao natin. nasayo na yon kung susundin mo. pero kung alam mong magiging masaya ka in the end, why not di ba? simple lang naman ang buhay. nasayo lagi ang pag pili. wag mo lang kakalimutan ang mga aral na nakita mo sa bawat pangyayareng nagaganap sa buhay mo. mga pangyayareng dala ng mga nakakasalamuha mo,. KAAWAY man, o KAIBIGAN. pareho lang yan.


ang mga pagsubok sa buhay natin di yan matatapos, hanggat buhay ka pa. kaya every trials you've got, take it as a challenge. isipin mo na lang part yun ng journey mo,.. marerealize mo din kung bakit nangyare ang mga yun at yun ang pinakamasarap na feeling. ang malaman ang halaga ng bawat pangyayare sa buhay mo noon, masakit man, o masaya. basta may dahilan. :)



malay mo, kaya nawala yung magandang bagay sayo ngayon, para pag may dumating na mas maganda, may space pa para sa bagay na yon. di naman kasi pwedeng doble doble di ba? ikaw din ang mabibigatan.



lahat ng bagay may dahilan. ikaw na lang ang umisip kung anong pwedeng maging dahilan. "ikaw din ang gagawa nun eh" :)



sana magets nyo. haha.

What if end of the world na bukas?

 

kung end of the world na bukas, ano nga ba una kong gagawin? choose the right? pero di ko naman gusto? or choose the wrong, but masaya ako? 


ano nga ba?

yung magdadala sakin sa langit?


o yung maaring dalhin ako sa hell?



pipiliin ko ba ang panandaliang saya habang naghihintay ng katapusan?

o ang pagiging tama hanggang katapusan?

how is it can be right? when it actually wrong? and how it can be so wrong? when it is actually the right?

iba iba nga naman ang perception ng tao. iba iba ang iniisip nila tungkol sa pamumuhay sa ibabaw ng mundo. merong sobrang relihoyoso, na ang tanging misyon lang sa buhay ay magpakabuti para makarating sa langit. actually, 1 year ago, naalala ko pa yung tinuro ng psychology professor ko...

ang buhay, ikaw dapat ang mamili sa kung anong pupuntahan nyan... you have freedom to choose and it is your responsibility.

hindi yung, magpapakabait ka lang dahil gusto mong pumunta sa langit? without any idea what are the importance of God? so pano kung walang ganung consequence? pano kung kahit magpakabait ka, sa hell ka pa din? hindi ka na magpapakabait ganun?

ang buhay hindi kelangan ng dahilan. 

kung naniniwala ka sa Diyos, eh di maniwala ka, wag mo isipin ang consequences. Let Him guide you, pag nagkamali ka, say sorry. I'm sure maiintindihan nya, kung paulit ulit kang nagkamali, pilitin mong itama, hindi yung puro sorry ikaw din naman ang magsusuffer ng consequences eh, dahil ikaw din ang gumawa nun. wala syang kasalanan, kaya di ko pa din magets ang mga taong sinisisi lahat sa Diyos ang mga paghihirap nila, hello? kamusta naman yun? try mo kayang irewind ang mga ginawa mo, tingnan ko lang kung hindi mo makita ang mali sa pagkatao mo.

ako? ang buhay ko? hindi perpekto. laging komplikado. at aaminin ko, ilang beses ko ng ginustong wakasan na to. ayoko na. pagod na ko. masyado ng masasakit ang mga nangyayari, lagi kong kinukumpara ang sarili ko sa iba, bakit ako ganito, bakit sila ganun?  di ko maintindihan pero talagang ang tingin ko sa sarili ko, sobrang lubog na sa putikang di na makaahon. at patuloy na nilulubog ng mga taong masayang masayang lumulubog ako.
pero pag kaharap ko na ang Diyos, gumagaan ang loob ko, para bang may yumayakap sakin na pinupunasan ang bawat luhang pumapatak sa mga mata ko.

hindi ko alam kung nagbago na nga ba talaga ako, maaring hindi pa, maaring asar na asar pa din ako sa buhay na meron ako, pero isa lang ang alam kong nagbago, ang pananaw ko.

noon, ang buhay para sakin, dapat puro saya, dapat gawin lahat ang gusto. lahat dapat makuha ko. masyado akong makasarili.gusto ko ako lang. gusto ko masaya ako, ni hindi ko man lang naisip, masaya nga ko, pano yung iba? masaya ba sila sa ginagawa ko?



ang hirap isipin kung end of the world na nga bukas. Ano nga ba gagawin ko? lahat ng tao siguro sasabihin, gusto nila makasama yung mga taong mahal nila. 


ako kaya?



sana kung end of the world na bukas, libre na lahat ng pamasahe, sa eroplano, barko, jeep, taxi, tricycle, haha. basta lahat libre. para maigala ko ang momy ko around the world, pero teka? kaya ba ng oras yun? at may magddrive kaya? syempre mas pipiliin ng mga driver na makasama na lang nila ang mga mahal nila sa buhay, kesa magpakapagod magmaneho para sa iba di ba, eh panu kung, sana libre na lang lahat ng bagay noh? kotse, lahat libre, pati pagkain, as in wala ng kwenta ang pera sa mundo. oh eh sino naman ang gagawa ng mga pagkain? sinong magtitinda? at yung kotse, panu un? eh hindi naman ako magdrive? cgurado busy lahat ng tao para makasama nila ang mahal nila sa buhay... hay anu kaya? dito na lang sa bahay? hihintayin ang end of the world?



hmmmm...



napaisip ako, nagawa ko ng magsaya, hobby ko yun eh, motto ko pa. para ngang buong buhay ko yun na lang ang inisip ko, gawin lahat ng pwedeng makapagpasaya kasi baka hindi ko na magawa. nagawa ko na din magmahal ng paulit ulit. chumever, nagawa ko na din kumain ng madami na parang wala ng bukas, nagawa ko na din naman gumala ng wagas, nagawa ko na din magpakalasing, at bumisyo, nagawa ko na din naman maging mabuting anak, kaibigan, kapamilya. nagawa ko na naman yun eh. ang di ko pa lang talaga nagagawa ng kumpleto eh... yung linisin ang sarili ko...



kung end of the world na bukas, ang una kong gagawin, pupunta ng church, magkukumpisal, at kahit abutin ako ng isang buong araw sa kakasabi ng mga kasalanan ko at paghingi ng sorry k God gagawin ko. sa dami ba naman ng kasalanan ko. at hihiling ako kahit isa lang, na sana pag end of the world na bukas, sama2 pa din kami ng mga mahal ko sa buhay kasama sya. cgurado, masaya na kong mawawala. 

fate is a process ღ

mind -> words -> action -> habit -> character -> fate

actually, narinig ko lang yan sa Filipino 2 professor ko, nacurious ako nung sinulat nya yang mga salitang yan, habang nagiingay ang mga kaklase ko. pag kasulat nya sa board, umupo sya at tumingin sa amin, isa-isa nya tinitingnan ang mga kaklase kong, sobrang magingay, parang walang prof sa unahan. buti na lang, ireg ako, so, di ko pa ganoon kaclose ang mga classmates ko kaya wala ako makausap. tinuon ko na lang ang pansin ko sa nakasulat sa board at sa prof naming ngiti ng ngiti habang nagmamasid. ang weird! sobra.
tapos, nagsalita sya... 

ang naintindihan ko sa mga sinabi nya,


we are the one who is responsible with our fate. it's always starts on  our minds, kung ano yung iniisip mo, yun dapat ang sundin mo. kaya lang, isipin mo muna ng ilang ulit, kung tama ba o mali, saka mo buuin ang mga salitang bibitawan mo, dahil baka taliwas yon, sa kung anong iniisip mo, pag sigurado ka na sa mga salitang binigkas mo, saka mo isipin kung anong action ang gagawin mo, pwede kang magshortcut, pero mas maganda kung paghihirapan mo ang bawat bagay. at hanggang sa magiging habit mo na ang aksyon na ginawa mo. paulit-ulit mong gagawin yun hanggang sa makasanayan mo na. pag nasanay mo ng gawin ang mga bagay na yun, yun ang bubuo ng karakter mo, ng pagkatao mo, yun na yung tinatawag na IKAW. depende na kung ano ang inisip mo nung umpisa kung ano ang magiging kapalaran mo, kung maganda, eh di maganda, kung masama, eh di masama. Ikaw ang may kontrol ng lahat, maaring mahirap, maaring madaming sagabal at tukso papunta sa kapalaran mo, ngunit, dapat mong panindigan kung ano ang nasa isip mo. kung mababago ito, mababago din ang kapalaran mo. 


it's like,


goodlife >dream >pursue >hardwork >diligent >goodlife

"everything you'll do, will be paid in the end"-april

Young Wild and Free

actually I am not that so adik tulad ng iniisip nyo. sisha lang yan na watermelon flavored :) usok lang. walang damo. HAHA. yeah I'm a smoker (marlboro black) sabi nila nakakaturn off daw ang mga babaeng nagssmoke, talaga? haha. di ok! I dont care. haha. , I'm a hard drinker(mahina lang ako sa beer) 

....

Young Wild and Free

[Bruno Mars]
So what we get drunk?
So what we smoke weed?
We're just having fun
We don't care who sees
So what we go out?
That's how it's supposed to be
Living young and wild and free

[Wiz Khalifa]
So what I keep 'em rolled up?
Saggin' my pants, not caring what I show
Keep it real with my niggas
Keep it player for these hoes
And look clean don't it?
Washed it the other day, watch how you lean on it
Give me some 501 jeans on it
Roll joints bigger than King Kong's fingers
And smoke them hoes down 'til they stingers
You a class clown and if I skip for the day
I'm with your bitch smokin' grade A

[Snoop Dogg]
You know what?
It's like I'm 17 again
Peach fuzz on my face
Lookin', on the case
Tryna find a hella taste
Oh my god, I'm on the chase, Chevy
It's gettin' kinda heavy, relevant, sellin' it
Dippin' away, time keeps slippin' away
Zip in the safe, flippin' for pay
Tippin' like I'm drippin' in paint
Up front, four blunts, like, "Khalifa put the weed in a J"

[Bruno Mars]
So what we get drunk?
So what we smoke weed?
We're just having fun
We don't care who sees
So what we go out?
That's how it's supposed to be
Living young and wild and free

[Wiz Khalifa]
And I don't even care
Cause if me and my team in there
There's gonna be some weed in the air
Tell 'em Mac
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsty.com/snoop-dogg-young-wild-and-free-lyrics.html ]
[Snoop Dogg]
Blowin' everywhere we goin' and now you knowin'
When I step right up, get my lighter so I can light up

[Wiz Khalifa]
That's how it should be done
Soon as you thinkin' you're down
Find how to turn things around
Now things are lookin' up

[Snoop Dogg]
From the ground up, pound up, this Taylor Gang
So turn my sound up and mount up and do my thang

[Wiz Khalifa]
Now I'm chillin', fresh outta class, feelin'
Like I'm on my own and I could probably own a building
Got my own car, no job, no children
Had a science project, me and Mac killed it

[Snoop Dogg]
T-H-C, M-A-C, D-E-V, H-D-3, high as me
This is us, we gon' fuss
And we gon' fight and we gon' roll
And live off life

[Bruno Mars]
So what we get drunk?
So what we smoke weed?
We're just having fun
We don't care who sees
So what we go out?
That's how it's supposed to be
Living young and wild and free

[Wiz Khalifa]
Yea, roll one, smoke one
When you live like this you're supposed to party
Roll one, smoke one, and we all just having fun
So we just, roll one, smoke one
When you live like this you're supposed to party
Roll one, smoke one, and we all just having fun

[Bruno Mars]
So what we get drunk?
So what we smoke weed?
We're just having fun
We don't care who sees
So what we go out?
That's how it's supposed to be
Living young and wild and free 

there's nothing bad about being yourself as long as wala kang naaapakang tao at masaya ka sa ginagawa mo, wala sila magagawa, yan ka eh hindi sila ang may hawak ng buhay mo. no one else but YOU. pag nagkamali ka, ikaw ang maapektohan, hindi sila. kaya let people judge you, at least they'll make you famous. haha. 

5 years ago nung natuto akong magyosi, after graduating highschool. Chain smoker. routine ko na magyosi araw-araw. breaktime, lunchtime, at pag walang ginagawa. nung una,curious lang ako. everything naman nagsisimula sa curiosity. Yeah, aaminin ko, feeling ko kasi before ang astig ko pag nagyoyosi, parang ang tapang tingnan. ganun yung tingin ko sa mga nagyoyosi noon. ang positive noh? haha. pero nawala yong ganun feeling nung na immune na ko sa pagyoyosi, yung tipong, normal na lang. up to now, di pa din ako legal sa family ko. pero alam nila na nagyoyosi ako. haha. my mom always caught me. lagi syang nakakakita ng kaha kahang yosi sa bag at cabinet ko. nung una, super tanggi. there are times pa nga na ang sinasabi ko pag nakikitaan ako ng ganun. "hala! sino naglagay nyan sa bag ko?" haha. patay malisya. pero this year a few months ago, kinausap ko mom ko about my habit, and she told the bad effects of it, but then at least alam na nya. after that day, di pa din ako makapagyosi ng legal dito samin. syempre nahihiya pa din naman akong ipakita sa kanila. alam ko naman yung mga utak ng ibang tao. they judge people as if they are clean. so mas pinili ko na lang na di na lang ilantad dito. I've been alcohol addict. since na matuto ako magyosi, pati alak sinabay ko na din. nakakaloka pag naaalala kong umuuwi ako ng gumagapang... with matching suka, every steps. kaloka. but I have nothing to regret about, yun ang pinakamasayang part ng pagiging tanga minsan. experience new things. na kakaiba. haha. yung tipong umiiyak ka pag sobrang lasing ka na. pero di mo alam kung bakit. when I were drunk, I feel I can understand anything. thoughts, life, happiness, encouragement  anything. feeling ko ang tapang tapang ko. but today., I've realized na ginamit ko lang pala ang alak sa mga problema ko, ginawa ko syang escape sa mga totoong nararamdaman ko. I'm still drinking alcohol up to now, and I will do that whenever I want, this time, not because I just want to escape but to celebrate life though bad or good things happened, that's life, no one can tell. sabi nga di ba, you only live once. don't bother about people who will talk about you, gawin mo gusto mo. yaan mo sila. live young wild and free. 

PS. 

"Do whatever makes you happy, decide as if it is your choice, but if time comes that you realized you've made the wrong decision, pag naulit ulit ang ganong sitwasyon, don't decide the same way again. dahil paulit ulit lang mangyayare yun sa buhay mo. naging masaya ka nga, pero saglit lang. "

be young if you're young, be mature, if you are. :)

be young enough to be free and be matured enough to take action. 

what I've learned today ♡

This day was very sluggish!!! that was I thought earlier.  

I slept late last night, almost midnight and I woke up at 4 in the morning just to attend my first class, RIZAL. My God, walang ginawa kundi magsermon. pag pasok pa lang nya, napagalitan na agad yung mga nag chichismisan sa harap ng pinto. eh di pa kami umuupo kasi super gabok pa ng armchairs. hay.. whatever... ang talagang kinainis ko sa kanya, she's very matapobre. Rizal daw is all about good manners, that we should act as an educated person. Ok, good manners kunno. And then she started to tell us a story about her experiences, sa mga naaalala ko, galit na galit sya sa mga jeepney drivers who bark their destinations..

driver: bayan! bayan! bayan!

she: bakit ka ba sigaw ng sigaw kelangan pa bang isigaw?

driver: nagtatawag lang po ng pasahero

she: marunong naman siguro magbasa ang mga tao noh! meron nakalagay dito (right side) dito (left side) sa una! kelangan pa isigaw kuya? ang ingay lang.

 (mejo edited na yung mga tinype ko, that's not exactly what she said but ganan na din un, baka nga mas malala pa) tumahimik lang daw yung driver and napuno yung jeep nya. 

worst is, sabi nya samin kanina "tingnan nyo pag hindi edukadong tao, wag kayong kumilos na parang tricycle driver lang o magtitinda lang dyan sa tabi"   (with poker face)

Madami pa syang binitiwang salita kanina eh. yeah I got her point na we should act nga naman as professionals kase we are graduating students and soon to be the products of our school, but we can't blame others if they didn't learn their ethics. 

Kasalanan ba nilang pinanganak silang ganun?  

Madami pa syang kwento eh. though nakakatawa and gets ko sya, di pa rin makatao yung pagmamaliit nya sa mga maliliit na tao.  

Sa pagkakaalam ko, si Rizal, as our Hero, he never judged poor people kahit mataas na yung pinagaralan nya. kung magmamaliit ka ng ibang tao, di ba parang yun yung walang pinag aralan?

moving on... 

next subject after rizal was entrepreneurship ang ganda sana ng subject eh. bulok lang ang prof. gustong gusto ko na talaga kanina na ako na lang yung magdiscuss ng sinasabi nya. (yabang) haha. but I'd rather di na lang makinig sa kanya at nagbasa na lang ako ng stories sa wattpad mas ok pa yun. meron naman soft copy na pwedeng pagaralan kaya di na lang ako nakinig. at as I expected ilang minutes lang nagpalabas na sya. bulok talaga. pero at least labas na. 
moving on... 

literature was next . isa pang super boring na subject. pero mukang magaling naman yung prof kaya mejo naenjoy ko din kahit pano.
literature is the expression of emotions through arts.
yun yung pagkakaintindi ko. kaya etong ginagawa ko, literature to! haha.
we had our first activity, list down daw yung philosophy namin in life...

di ko lam susulat ko. anu nga ba philosophy/motto ko?

YOLO
you only live once.
yun sana. kaso nauna yung kaklase ko. haha. 

(nun lang talaga nagisip ng motto sa buhay?)

tas sabi ni ma'am irelate daw sa sarili yung philosophy.
naisip ko, ALL I WANT IS TO BE HAPPY.

"Do whatever makes you happy"
yan yung nilagay ko. 

"I always decide based on whatever makes me happy, kung san ako masaya dun ako. because I believe, life is short you didn't know when it will ends. live life to the fullest sabi nga di ba... I do whatever comes on my mind maybe there's regrets, di naman maiiwasan yun e lalo na kung pabigla bigla but at least naging masaya ko mamatay man ako bukas, nagawa ko ang gusto ko. シ"

moving on... 

TQM with a Nigerian professor. for sure nosebleed. haha.

he came. ang weird nga eh, nung una I expected that boring yun because I thought, I cannot comprehend on what he would discuss.  

then suddenly I found myself listening. seriously. haha. 

according to him, TQM is MQT(reverse) 

it is total quality management right? let's start from M, it is management which is planning, organizing, staffing, directing, and controlling (naks saulo) 

why you should do planning, organizing, staffing, directing, and controlling? to achieve quality right? we should plan with quality, organize with quality, we must have quality staff,we should direct and control with quality.Total means Organization. organization must have its vision. vision is future. It is potency to actuality. example: you will be having a class on the 2nd floor of your building, before you make it , you have to step on stairs which has a caution situated "watch your steps" sa pagmamadali mo, hindi mo na sinunod and you rushed up  para makarating kagad sa taas. unfortunately, you tripped on the steps and you fall. di ka nakarating sa pupuntahan mo di ba? but, if only you've followed the rule, there is no falling. maayos kang makakarating sa pupuntahan mo. Relate it with your life, we all have our visions hindi natin makukuha agad yung vision natin na yun. kelangan dahan dahan, pinagiisipan at ginagawa ng maayos learn to follow the rules. to achieve vision we should have mission and to do that effectively we should have core values. We shall put God on our everyday living. work with him and he will find ways. nakakaproud pag pinaghirapan mo yung mga nagain mo. Leadership, everyone can be a leader in some different situations, being a leader is a responsibility and everyone of us have our different responsibilities, maybe at home, school, friends, etc. Integrity, respect yourself. kung di kaya ng ibang respetuhin ka, ikaw na gumawa para sa sarili mo. remember: do it first with yourself... let others follow. We should be proud of who we are, what we are, and what we can do. "Believe in yourself".

INTELLECT AND REASON

"whatever choice you make in life you must abide by the consequences. why? because freedom goes with responsibility"  

if you chose one thing, and it turned everything  adverse with your vision then accept it, face it, make it right. you have your freedom the time you chose it and you still have freedom to fix it. wala kang kelangan gawin kundi tanggapin at maniwala sa sarili mo. responsibilidad mo yun kasi choice mo yun, you have an intellect to think, and a reason to pursue.

Paradism of TQM 

total- entire company
quality-service product people and environment
management- planning organizing staffing directing controlling

Reason for TQM

•   competitiveness - - - why do we need quality? because of competency, how can we make quality? It is easy to lose one, but hard to have one.  anything in this world has competency. Everyone compete to live and there are such ways how to do that.
• efficiency and effectiveness - - -
• flexibility

Quality Service

• `time 

• `timeliness 

• `completeness 

• `consistency 

• `courtesy 

• `accuracy

• `accessibility 

• `responsiveness 

Corestone of TQM

• `customer satisfaction
• `continuous improvement (kaizen)
• `empowering your employee
• `T-together

         E- everyone
         A-achieves
         M- more
          work

wow ha! ang galing ko today! :)) congratulations to myself!!! HAHAHA
ang sluggish day ko naging productive bigla. :) sabi na e. tiwala lang. :D

"MAY RASON ANG MGA BAGAY BAGAY, IT'S EITHER IKAW ANG PIPILI NG RASON MO O TALAGANG MEANT TO BE" ♡

First ❤ ‏

what is the first thing you'll mind to do the moment you woke up in the morning?

how will you start your day?

what you will do first?

who will be the one you'll think first to talk to when you're happy?

when you're sad?

do you still remember your every first in your life?

your first love...

first kiss...

first heartbreak...

first dance...

first sex...

etc.

lahat tayo merong first. first crush, first kilig, first  holding hands, first hug, etc. and what so ever na first yan. Me, to answer the first question, everyday when I woke up, automatic I look into the mirror. I don't know, just a habit? and maybe because, I want to see if may nagbago ba sa mukha ko... haha. (kidding) di naman masamang umasang gaganda pa ko. haha :D I start my day by yun nga pagtingin sa salamin. ang weird nga noh?  sometimes I just look at it for so long without noticing the time. after the muni muni in salamin, I'll open my computer and browse, read, tweet, update, and anything na magawa ko. And again, time passing so fast makikita ko na lang 3 hours na pala ko nagnenet. In short, I start my day by wasting time and unproductive. Naiisip ko naman yun, pero, nakakatamad talaga. :P if it's school days, I woke up 3 hours before my class mostly naman am an class ko. liligo, fix myself. eat. then gora na. :)

First person to talk to ♡

schooldays :)

School is almost half part of our life...

Elementary :)

This journey started when I was 3 years old... [as I remembered? :)]

                                                                    "I'm Just A Kid"

simple plan 

I woke up it was 7
I waited till 11
To figure out that no one would call
I think I've got a lot of friends but I don't hear from them
What's another night all alone?
When you're spending everyday on your own
And here it goes

I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid, I know that it's not fair
Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is
Having more fun than me tonight

And maybe when the night is dead, I'll crawl into my bed
And staring at these 4 walls again
I'll try to think about the last time I had a good time
Everyone's got somewhere to go
And they're gonna leave me here on my own
And here it goes

I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid, I know that it's not fair
Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is
Having more fun than me

What the hell is wrong with me?
Don't fit in with anybody
How did this happen to me?
Wide awake I'm bored and I can't fall asleep
And every night is the worst night ever

I'm just a kid [repeat x5]

I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid, I know that its not fair
Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is
Nobody wants to be alone in the world.

I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid, I know that its not fair
Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is
Nobody wants to be alone in the world
Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is
Having more fun than me tonight

I'm all alone tonight
Nobody cares tonight
Cause I'm just a kid tonight

I just love that song yeah! simple plan rocks! :) huluu adik lang?

go let's start. . :)

I got jealous with my cousins who are older than me... I'm just curious of their backpacks that have different colors with a cartoon character of Disney or a cute Robbi rabbit. I wish I have that also, so I beg my mom to bought me one. I really want that bag. I want to ride in a jeep, that before I didn't really know what was that vehicle. My cousins have service jeep, and I saw them arriving from school yelling goodbye loudly to their service mates, that made me thought that they look very happy on the ride. I turned 4 and my mom brought me into the school. Like my cousins, I experienced how to be a little kid schooler. Being a child is awesome, less circumstances, less worries, more fun. Everyday for me was like a fairy tale, or a dream come true. New notebooks, new pencils, color pencils, crayons, and more school supplies, specially my dream bag, a pink barbie backpack with my cute pink lunch box and a tumbler. I just loved coloring, I have a lot of coloring books and coloring materials such as water color ,crayon pastels, coloring pens etc. that talent made me won on poster making contest (proud of myself) :) .I've got awards on my preparatory and kinder graduation. take note. "Most Behave" haha. I still have certificate and medal here. I love math, English, and Science. Everyday was a new learning. I always read books, that's my routine, after doing my assignments. Years passed so quickly, I just realized that I am getting older when I felt a little crush on my grade 2 classmate, OH MY GOD, yes, grade two. haha. but that was just a crush :) I also valued friends on my young age, I haven't remember that nakipagaway ako maybe tampuhan, but yung sampalan and sabunutan, never. I am getting matured coz I've became competitive yeah, compete with my classmates as well as my schoolmates. I treat everyday was  challenge for me. I'll make sure that I will get the highest score on our exams, it happened, but not all the time. I always put as a leader on our activities which made me become responsible even at a young age. I became varsity player of volleyball girls in our school. I can still remember kung gaano kami pinahirapan ng coach namin at yung coach namin taga dito sa compound namin he is my "kuya" pero walang kuya kuya that time, pahirap kung pahirap as a team captain ako ang inasign nya to manage my team at ako din ang laging napapagalitan. (haynaku) pag training nga namin 50 times tatakbo sa vball court at everyday nadadagdagan yon. tsk. patayan ang training. pag nagkamali ka, pumpings o kaya push up mapababae man o lalaki, kasabay kasi namin sila sa practice. landi ko nga nun. haha. dami kong crush eh. haha. mabalik tayo dun sa push up, imagine pushing up with a shit on the ground potek! haha. di ko malilimutan yun. worth it naman yung trainings namin kasi we won champion kami on our town, may tinatawag pang hugot means kasama ka for area meet. iba-iba na kasama mo dun, iba't ibang school sa town. eh di syempre nadagdagan nanaman ang crush. haha. nagkacrush pa nga ko dati sa lesbian eh. syempre araw-araw magksama. Nung provincial meet na, overnight yun. kabado ko sobra. dun ko naranasan mamura. over! tinanga ba naman ako ng coach ko habang nsa loob ako ng court. grabe. hiya much ang peg ko. >.< pero tuloy pa di ako di ko sya pinansin, bumawi na lang ako. nanalo naman kami, kaya lang 2nd lang. at least may trophy. I've been active on different organization that helped me to find more friends and guess what maybe because mejo malandi na ko that time, haha. mahilig na magpacute, nagkaron na agad ako ng suitors, ang bata pa di ba. haha. Study, play and sleep everyday. naalala ko pa, excited ako pumasok non dahil gusto ko ako ang first na makakadating sa room at ang nakakatawa pa, maaga ako, kasi gusto ko malinis, sa public kasi merong mga assiggned na lilinisin by group ang mga student. oh ha! ang sipag! haha. pagkatapos malinis, flag ceremony na,isa ako dun sa mga leader ng excercise dance. naks. haha. Nung elementary di ko lam kung bakit pero mas gusto ko talaga ang nauutusan. I feel maasahan kasi. I felt they trusted me, and take note. di ko naman sinasabing tamad yung mga teachers sa public but naranasan kong ipacompute sakin yung mga grades ng students, then take home yung pagcheck ng test papers oh di ba, feeling teacher na kagad ako date.. pero enjoy ko pa din talaga noon ang paglalaro. haha. I can still remember the games we really enjoyed, that bato-bato pick na pag nanalo ka hahakbang ka ng isa until you get into the finish line pag naunahan mo yung kalaro mo it means you won, the tumbang preso that for me was the best game ever nilalaro ko to with my cousins and my playmates in school. It is played with a can and slippers kelangan nyo mapatumba yung lata para makapunta sa base at pag natayo agad nung taya ang lata at nataya ka nya ikaw na an taya.haha that was fun. tagutaguan or hide and seek, I played that much with my cousins here in our compound. mahirap sya pag ikaw ang taya, mahihirapan ka sa kahahanap lalo na kung madami sila. tapos sabay sabay pa sila lalabas at magsesave. I once experience being a "burot" which means ikaw ang taya sa buong laro. Ow, there's more, the 10'20 for girls and feeling girls haha, chinese garter sya kung tawagin, you will just jump and jump until you finish the song 10'20 (is that a song?) madalas to ginagawa sa corridors before and after class,   another is jerbase, mostly puro boys lang naglalaro nun, but natry ko din naman. nakakapagod. takbo ng takbo. patintero, na utas na ko sa kaba pag maabot ako ng taya, kelangan kasi makalampas ka sa line at makabalik ng hindi natataya. Langit Lupa that recently ko lang narealize ang freaky ng song nya," Langit lupa impyerno, im im impyerno" tas mei saksak and tulo ang dugo pa? (em I ryt?) . so ayun. yun ang naging buhay bata ko. I graduated with honor and like what I've thought when I was 3 years old, naging curious ako about the next chapter of my life.

Highschool Life ♡

We all know that the best part of being a student happened in high school days. I agree to that. :)

circumstances, worries, enemies, friends, stress, and happiness. 

let's take a flash back on my elementary days, before naiinggit ako sa mga ate at kuya kong nakasuot ng mga makukulay na backpack, yung pag byahe nila, their companion with their classmates and service mates on their grade school. I notice when I'm busy learning new things on my elementary years, I saw them wearing differently, they have a lot of changes. and then I thought, is that what's in on highschool?

It's not like the first time I entered school when I'm prep, naeexcite ako. but this time kinakabahan ako thinking how should I have make new friends.

On my first year, I'm so kind, pa demure, and study hard. I can still remember when I got line of 7 on my grades, I cried too much. I was so scared to tell my parents. Until my aunt, uncle and dad told me that it is normal with that school. I was prospered. and then normal na lang yung ganung grades samin.

シ  シ  シ  シ  シ

Everything happened seems so fast, at parang ang bilis ko din magbago ng personality. Maybe that was the real me, but, nabibilisan pa din ako. On my first year I was just simple student who just wanted to survive in highschool. And when I turned 2nd year dumami na arte ko sa katawan. I learned how to fix myself on my own way. I put lip balm or lip shiner to make my lips attractive (naks). That time usong uso yung, every break time  pulbo ng pulbo sometimes pa nga before and after the class. Syempre madaming crushes. puro pacute. there are times pa nga na, nagpapasikat ka para sa crush mo. yung tipong pag nakikita mo sya, super kilig ka at di mo alam ang gagawin mo. I have a lot of suitors (yabang) and I fell inlove so young. Siguro naka 5 na boyfriend ako buong highschool. In our school we have a place that we hangout every time na walang klase. In there we can chat loud, as in lahat na ng chismis napagchismisan na namin, sing, yung makikinig kami ng music, tas sabay sabay kami pag dating ng chorus, tas tatawa kami ng malakas. play guitar,yung may isang mag gigitara, tas kakanta, tas agawan na kung sino mag gigitara. even fight nagagawa namin don. tago kasi. haha. everything! ohh... I miss my highschool friends. We are all partners in crimes haha. I became a varsity of volleyball girls when I'm on 3rd year and they thought mas priority ko yun, as a friend naintindihan naman nila. So, I pursue of being a good player kahit sometimes di ko na sila nakakasama. 

senior year ♥

4th year na of being a student, every year naman mahirap na talaga yung mga subjects. but worst was that year. I almost can't do academics and play simultaneously. Until someone came into my life, he helped me on my works and cheer me up. He became my inspiration. My friends got jealous. They got angry on me. I can't explain why they were so tough. months passed boyfriend ko lang kasama ko until graduation, even on graduation day we end up without any settlement. Though I'm contented with him, I really miss my friends.